Unexpected turn of events.. huhu

Hello again, this is the first writing that I'll finish for this 2nd Sem of Year 1 Degree program.. I've been lazy to write in blog.. On the holidays, I spent them by watching tv and reading fanfics only.. The starting of this new semester is ultimately unexpected.. hahaha.. A bit of exaggeration there.. :P

Firstly, I was chosen as the class representative.. I didn't make any objection when my classmates choose me because my bestie Liza, willingly take the position of assistant class representative.. Then, I'm also aware that every one of us have to hold "big" position throughout our studies in IPBA.. At the beginning, I was anxious to hold this position because I'm not ready to take the responsibility.. Next, I'm not convinced if I'm able to do all the work.. However, after few weeks holding the position, I convince myself that I will be able to cope with all the challenges as long as I plan the ways to make my works easy.. So far, I don't feel really  depressed or stressed because most of my class members cooperate well with me.. Besides, I have a supportive assistants.. hehehe.. Thank you guys..  

MOST surprisingly, I'm interested with someone that I've never pay attention to.. huhu.. I even question my friend "What exactly did u see in him??" She said that "there's something magnetic about him that I can't describe." When I heard she said this I laugh at her and somehow I mock her.. Then, after about 1 year and a half, I noticed that I'm obviously attracted to him.. But, the attraction has not reached the level of affection.. hahaha.. It's just that I always look forward to see and talk to him.. :)

That's all for now folks.. Until next time.. BYE..       

The Most Romantic Love Song..

Hello everyone, I would like to share one my favourite love song called Eclipse performed by Nujabes ft. Substantial.. The main reason why I love this song is because the lyrics was so deep..This song is not like any other love song that always feature illusion or dream.. This song stressed about loving someone in a cruel world and reality.. Also, I believe this song has put a lot of genuine expression of feelings.. Nujabes and Substantial make a perfect collaboration.. Substantial has a great voice for rap song while Nujabes was great on expressing his feelings through music..


ECLIPSE ~ NUJABES ft. SUBSTANTIAL.

This is for the things I don't say enough, 
Waiting for the day we touch 
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar 
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner 
This is for the things I don't say enough, 
Waiting for the day we touch 
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar 
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner

Do you honestly believe I'd turn my back on you and 
leave my true love all alone in this cruel world? 
When every single solitary day I do my best to secure 
a future for me and you girl 
Cause it IS all about you, It's been all about you 
Seconds feel like millenniums when I'm without you, 
But my momma said there be days like this and ain't 
jack we can do that's the way life is.

But it's been weeks since I felt your lips and I'm a fiend 
for my queen so I need a fix, 
Only for now I'll settle for these talks on the phone, 
But I cut my arm off for a moment alone, 
With the one that I cherish whether in Rome or Paris, Amsterdam or Japan, 
Please note that I am thinkin' bout my baby as much as humanly possible, 
And I know you're frustrated cause life has too many obstacles

This is for the things I don't say enough, 
Waiting for the day we touch 
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar 
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner 
This is for the things I don't say enough, 
Waiting for the day we touch 
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar 
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner

My dear my dear my dear I know you're lonely 
An' I know very well that it's hard and it hurts but 
there's no need to cry, 
Cause I will be home soon and there ain't no limit to 
the things that we goin' do, 
Whatever you want name it and I'll make it reality, 
To see my baby's face nothin' means more then that for me. 
This is far from flattery I ain't trying to impress you, 
truth is I miss you and I'm hurtin' internally, 
Sometimes these long trips feel like eternity, 
But they say distance makes the heart grow fonder, 
And in this case it's proven to be fact, 
So I'll be back like a T100.

From blocks away you will see me comin', 
With the biggest smile you ever seen on my face, 
Cause even the toughest man on the planet needs lovin', 
There's nothin' tame the wild like a woman's embrace.
This is for the things I don't say enough, 
Waiting for the day we touch 
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar 
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner 
This is for the things I don't say enough, 
Waiting for the day we touch 
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar 
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner

Feels like it's been forever and I can't wait to see ya, 
It's like wit' Bonnie and Clyde, Tony and Maria, 
Romeo and Juliet, Akeem, Alicia. 
Basically inseparable and it's more then sexual.
Withstand every shell Tell me don't you like the sound of that? 
Got my heart racing an about to have a heart attack 
Wantin' to be loved by you just you. 
Theres nobody loves you like I do 
And I ain't scared to show it 
but these feelings are hard to put into words 
and I'm a poet slash MC 
So give me credit for expressing them 
because writin' this was more nervous then I ever been

I had to get it out for when I'm unable to sit wit' you, 
You have a little song that I wrote for you to listen to, 
So you know the way that you're missin' me I'm missin you. 
I wanna give you the world but for now I hope this'll do.


That's it.. A most AMAZING and FLAWLESS song.. :)
RIP Nujabes and for Substantial plz continue on producing great songs.. 

I give up..

I am glad that I have not confess my feelings and be in a relationship with him.. There are few things that I've learnt from this experience.. First, never easily fall in love with someone.. Unless, you see that he is truly sincere and put a lot of effort to win your heart.. Second, make sure before you start a relationship that special someone really appreciates you.. I think this the most important aspect to look at.. It is useless to be with someone who always hurt your feelings.. I believe every girls dream to have a guy who would be the one who protect them and never hurt them whether physically and mentally..

I sometimes feel hatred spreads within me whenever I think about him.. I really don't care anymore.. I don't want to see him or contact with him for now.. I want to let him know that I'm angry and frustrated with his actions.. I promise myself never fall for someone who doesn't appreciate me.. Currently, the person that makes me feel unappreciated is him..

I know he probably can't read this.. However, I still wants to write this message..
I give up on you already.. So, please never ever giving me any idea of you are interested in me.. All the time I was able to be patience to you.. But, now I rather be someone who is selfish and cold.. That's all because for my own sake..