Matters of Heart..

22th-30th Oct 2011.. This one week holiday practically a hell for me.. Ughhhh!!
I extremely feel bored and I don't have the mood to open my books to study for my final exam.. My God... *sigh...

Even worse I miss him badly.. Shitttt!! I keep thinking about him.. I only get distracted from any thoughts of him whenever I read fanfic.. Thank God I have this hobby.. I can't understand what has gotten into me.. My mind keep reminding me to accept him as a friend while my heart says the other way round.. I don't know which one should I choose.. As in Malay proverb Ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa.. Indeed, I am tired with all his mistreatment that he had inflicted towards myself but my heart still giving me the idea that he will change.. I noticed that since I act coldly towards him, he did some changes.. Like he is the one who will be the first one to asked me out or invite me whenever we have gathering.. My heart already forgiven him but not my mind..

Recently, two days ago, as usual Chacha (my roomate), Ayn (my future roommate) and I went to have our dinner in a cafe nearby our hostel.. Then, a senior joined us.. There's a lot of things that we talked about.. We stayed there until the owner told us that they will be closing shortly.. huhuhuhu.. Poor them, they have to remind us to go back or else we wouldn't bother because we was too busy talking.. The topic that catches my attention the most is about love.. hahahahaha.. This is the very first time I told my love story to a guy.. He advises us to confess your feelings towards someone that you love or you'll regret.. He view that the upcoming results should be put aside as long as your "burden" is lifted from your shoulder.. He have an experience that thought him to confess your feelings to someone you love before it is too late.. Amazing story indeed.. :)

Then, we asked him is it acceptable in a boys view if a girl start to confess their feelings? He said that for him right now it is out of concern, as long as the result can bring both parties together..